Hello my wonderful followers. I just wanted to send a quick message to you all and say a personal “hello” and that I haven’t forgotten you or why it is you offer your support to me. In fact I haven’t stopped thinking about you all and how I can further help/inspire/give more of what you need. I have been struggling with one simple fact: while mental health has been a big part of my past, it is not as much a part of my present, nor I hope my future. It is true I suffer from anxiety, yes. And I will continue to post about this when I am anxious. But it’s not always so severe that it takes over from the beauty of my experiences. And at times I am finding that digging around in my past struggles, into depth I had long dealt with and buried, has come at a cost to my own personal wellbeing. Because I am now a happy and positive person (most of the time!) and I have moved on. And there should be no pressure for me to feel bad or anxious, just so I have something to say.
My purpose has always been to show how dark it was for me, to show how it can be better. And I want to continue to do so! Unravelling a psyche that is no longer a part of my life, has sometimes been disturbing and is not going to serve me or you in the long run.
But do not fear. I do not feel like the work I have done has been a waste. In fact, for many I know it has been a lifeline. I can never say that my stories were meaningless or pointless. And I am still passionate about ending the stigma surrounding mental illness. I am therefore opening up the blog to others who are suffering and have a story to share. To continue the ground work that The Unmarked Road has started.
But for me personally it is time to show how life can be AFTER surviving. My website will keep the stories of my past to continue to help those struggling not to feel alone, to give hope. But what I would like to show more of is how my life is now IN-SPITE of having had those problems. That POSITIVITY and GRATITUDE are my life’s goals and daily ambitions.
I know I will lose some of you as the transformation of this starts to take shape. That’s ok and I wish you nothing but love and peace; I cannot be there for all.
I am not 100% sure how it will all progress, but for those of you who want to stick around and find out, thank you. For now, I wish you a beautiful weekend in your beautiful lives.