It’s finally happened. We are back online! Back to being connected. I nearly cried with joy… Well not quite. But working from home is isolating enough, add no internet or phone data to the mix and well, it’s downright depressing at times. Especially over Christmas where really, there’s nothing else to do but sit inside and enjoy the warmth of your slanket whilst watching Netflix. Oh wait…no we couldn’t do that either! And not having TV; well let’s just say I became very well acquainted with the world of Game of Thrones – which I’d never really been interested in watching – and have watched all 4 seasons thanks to someone lending us the box sets. By the way, it’s well worth a watch. Not really as mind-blowing as I thought it would be through all the hype; I thought there’d be oscar worthy performances, scripting and such, but it’s never the less very entertaining. Like an Eastenders of a Lord of the Rings/Gladiator type world.

So, during this month offline, it very much shocked me just how dependent we are on the internet. A lot of the times whilst travelling we of course were not able to go online, and honestly we didn’t miss it. But even then it was still a necessity in order to book hostels and flights for example. We were just so busy living out the experience; meeting new people, exploring new places, that was more of a nuisance to planning than it was to connecting to the world. I don’t know which of my readers are from the UK, but over the past few months there have probably been about 2 days where it hasn’t been completely miserable weather wise, so you’re literally stuck indoors, and if you try to talk to strangers you’re in serious danger of becoming that weirdo on the street in the middle of town with mental health problems. Now wouldn’t that be ironic 😉

The few times I have been online after purchasing new data on my phone, I’ve actually been incredibly bored by the internet. Social media in particular. After going through all the notifications and messages from people and feeling a bit less of a hermit, I logged off. I realised that there was something kind of freeing about not being able to be at everyone’s beck and call. If it wasn’t for the necessity of publicising my blog, for which the majority of leads come from Facebook currently, I would come off all together and go back to a simpler time where the internet was used purely for information gathering, for which it still is an invaluable tool.

Taking away the social media aspect and it’s insistent on you being connected at all times, the sad truth dawned almost daily on me that without internet there is a lot you can’t do. Mainly FaceTime/Skyping my family in Germany on Christmas eve. That was truly heartbreaking. But simple things such as booking appointments, finding out contact information, blogging; none of them were possible. The ultimate joke came when on the phone to Sky about the problem, during which they asked us to email them a picture across to them of the set up…they just assumed we had smart phones and data. And luckily one of us did but have we as a society really become that hopelessly reliant on the web? If I wasn’t able to call someone, I was royally screwed. And so being reconnected has come as a relief more than anything. Life just is that much simpler with it.

So what have I been doing? Well apart from the fact we’ve just had Christmas and I had two (outwardly) growing boys to contend with – we’ve just moved in with my brother-in-law – I’ve been writing my novel. It’s not been easy. I’m more brain dumping at the moment. Generally my best writing comes from how I’m feeling and when I suddenly get the urge, like if I’m hungry, to write what’s going on inside my head. So forcing myself to sit and write every day, as much as I am enjoying the development of the characters and the story, the writing itself is, well, it’s crap. It’s like reading 50 Shades of Grey without all the sex. You’re basically just left with…well if you’ve read it you know.

But I keep going and use this just as an exercise to get the basis of the story together. Once the very rough first brain-dump draft has been done, I can go through the entire thing and really think about the writing. That’s how I work best I think. If I sat there I tried to make every paragraph worthy of publishing, I’d never finish the book. And I’m planning a trilogy!

So what am I up to today? I’m off outside! The sun is shining and I need my vitamin Ds! So I’ll love you and leave you with this short little ‘I’m back’ post and look forward to reconnecting with you all!

All my love,

Dani xx