You may have noticed my incredibly nervous demeanour in my last 3 minute memoir. Or, like most people you won’t have seen the hurricane going on inside of me that I was trying to hide behind a ‘calm’ exterior.
People are astonished when I tell them that I suffer with anxiety. They have no idea the turmoil going on inside and how much energy is spent on fighting the instinct of running away and hiding! I can only explain it as being on a high energy frequency – a very nervous and unsettling one. It’s like I’m vibrating. I feel vulnerable and exposed like everyone will see how transparent I am. The fear of not knowing what to say or how to act, dominates my behaviour.
I’m sorry for my rather dishevelled appearance and my rather slow speech in this video. You can see the physical side effects that social anxiety has on me. People don’t realise how much energy the body is using up when in a state of anxiousness, but I hope there’s some comfort in knowing that there are many of us out there that suffer. We are not alone. xx